Behind on blogs as always.....But posting fairly regularly.
It's just a shame that occasionally a post is for a girl who has since moved on. However, in those instances I like to think it is a pleasant reminder of the good times we had and a nice little unexpected buzz at the sudden appearance of their report.
Some relationships burn bright and just as suddenly end. I had a lovely few months with Trini, and it was with a little sorrow when our chats came to close. She was a wonderful, caring person, and I held her hand through some very real worrying times (the change of job into a very real, manly work environment that could lead to solitude.....
.....the isolation when trapped in a flooded town.....) as well as looking after her during our fun together.
Here's a blog Trini sent to me during our time together.....It reads as much like a testimonial in places (nothing wrong with hearing nice things), but I hope you enjoy some of her experiences....
Like all good stories, this sissy has to go back to the beginning; to when i first
discovered the wonderful Nanny (Mistress) Brianna.
Having been a longtime, relatively secret, very submissive sissy male; i have looked all over the internet, throughout the years - in search of new experiences, ideas, stories, pictures and Dominant Contact possibilities. Lately, due to getting a little older i guess; this sissy had really started to feel a pressing need to get involved in something, or with Someone of some substance - and purpose. Something where i could submit like the very submissive sissy that i really am. i have had a twitter account for a short time (@knickerpansy), but had never really utilized it; nor did i really know how some of it all works? Still don't understand some of it actually.
While recently / seriously searching thru some listings of sissy and diaper Dominants and subs; i discovered a whole new world of Dominant Contacts, many of which were also involved in Findom and selling diaper/sissy Dominant Clips, etc. Have recently been turned on by the idea, of the control and humiliation involved in Findom; and being a longtime sissy panty and diaper masturbator - the idea of the Dominant Video clips was also very exciting.
But both of these new ideas for this sissy, seemed to lack the more human touch
that i so desperately needed.
Then i stumbled upon one Mistresses' posting that had a sissy subs' picture and the ominous title 'Caught!'. i clicked on that and - OMG! This Mistress had a linked page called 'Caught!', that dealt with the exposure and blackmail of submissive sissies! A Very Very exciting webpage, indeed. Upon further investigation i found out Her name, Mistress Brianna from the U.K.; and Her email, and a whole very interesting/exciting/well done site called Brianna Games. The site contained one ULTRA exciting Blog of sissies under Her strict control, including incredible pictures; and all sorts of very exciting Headings and Features.
Very quickly found my sissy self investigating Her 'Sessions' heading and all the services that She enjoyed and offered to submissive sissies seeking humiliation and control - or even
caring support and advice. Surely with ALL of Her wonderful options, this panty
and diaper sissy could fit in somewhere; in Her Dominant world? i hoped?
It did not hurt either that She was a British/English Mistress - and being from one
of the Colonies of the Commonwealth; i grew up reading and masturbating to Many
Excellent British Femdom Publications over the years. Such as Madames, etc. And
sincerely believe that British Mistresses, especially when it comes to dominating
sissies or sissy diaper babies; are amoung the Best Dommes in the World.
Decided to email Mistress Brianna, to see if She would be interested in an older,
fairly discrete, online sissy such as myself. my main worry/concern was IF She was
interested or experienced with diaper sissy baby types? Alot of Mistresses are
Not, unfortunatly.
With a few very friendly and comfortable emails with Mistress B; i delighfully
discovered that She would enjoy a sissy diaper baby girl sub - and did have some
experience with a couple. i was so excited, and just got such a Very Good Feeling
from Her overall demeaner and obvious experience; along with Her excellent writing
style - that i decided to put my 'sissy easter eggs' into Her basket, and begin to
serve Her.
We both agreed that Her 'SISSY SERVITUDE' monthly program would be the best place for me to start. And Her new sissy charge forwarded her first months training fees thru Amazon Gift Card; which was very easy to do, and She received it almost instantly! Do have to add that i was very impressed with the way She allowed Us/us to reach a monthly training fee amount that was Both very fair and comfortable to me - and Domme/sub meaningful for Mistress and sissy. Knew i was doing the right
thing immediately - and Her 'Good Care' of this sissy, as She announced on Her
Twitter very early on has been worth every last penny - and then some. Also discovered a very intelligent, creative, imaginative, caring, and thoughtful New Friend.
Was super exciting to be allowed in Her Wonderful Realm. Was thrilled to learn She has a Real Time sissy wife (husband) named kristen - and an on Online sissy wife named alice! How incredible is that?! sissy alice is a very accomplished sissy/TS - quite beautiful with gorgeous clothing that she wears very very well. Some of the prettiest sissy pictures i have ever seen.
Mistress B's sissy wife kristen, while having to be more discrete than alice; is a very nice looking sissy as well, with some lovely skirts/heels and especially pretty blouses. This sissy has to confess that she very quickly developed a bit of a sissy girl crush, for kristen.
Not to mention the Huge crush sissy now has on Mistress B Herself. Gorgeous body,
Lovely Long Red Hair typically tied up with a pretty ribbon (mercy), and wears a
shirt or blouse Better than any Female / sissy / or TS! Naturally Heavenly.
Very early during the Domme/sub relationship, this sissy received two of the most
special treats in my sissy life.
Mistress Brianna, gratefully allowed Her new sissy baby to respectfully address Her
as - Nanny B. As a longtime sissy diaper baby sub/slave, have always wished for a
strict and controlling 'Nanny'.
And to top it all off, my wonderful new Nanny picked out a very unique/femminine
new sissy name for me - katrini !
i instantly LOVED and embraced my new sissy baby girl name for Nanny B; and will cherish it for the rest of my sissy life, no matter what happens down the road . . . .
The old saying "Be Careful What You Wish For" very quickly became a certainty under Nanny B's new direction. She wasted NO time putting Her sissy baby girl katrini (or trini, for short) in diapers 24/7, including sissy nappies under regular clothing to work!
And katrini has to admit, that she loved every minute of it; even though it was not easy, and was very nervous a lot of the time. Luckily sissy trini had used some Tena (Brand) adult size pull up style diapers; that she played with on occasion in the past - and they are alot more discrete under pants than regular full size adult diapers, so would really be the only choice sissy had for real diapers at work. Trouble was sissy was going to need many more now, so that dictated a trip to WalMart to purchase some in person! A fairly humiliating task to say the least!
And to add icing to the cake, poor sissy trini had to purchase the LADIES - Super Plus - Heavy absorbency Large size as well !
Felt sooooooo submissive and sissyish to have to finally have to wear diapers at
work. Was sissies Very First time, doing so. Made sissy trini feel very self
conscious all throughout the day. The bulk at the front under sissies pants was
not too bad - but just a feel with my hand at the back of my work jeans, felt very
Noticable Padded indeed ! i hoped that no one would notice, especially my work
mates and boss! And it was not just the diaper 'wearing' sissy had to deal with -
but Nanny B expected them to be properly used for light sissy baby 'wetting' at
work too !! Became soooo scared of noticable leaking !
Then Nanny Brianna quickly ordered full nighttime sissy baby wetting and MESSING too - with NO getting out of bed once sissy trini's strict bedtimes were set ! Of course Nanny knew that thicker adult diapers & heavy plastic or rubber sissy baby panties were going to HAVE to be utilized now - for Nighttime Nappytimes at ALL Times ! Had to protect Her poor pansies sheets and mattress - at least until heavy crinkly noisy plastic or rubber sheets could be added to babygirls bed ! Nannies' goal was definitely full diaper DEPENDency for Her sissy baby girl katrini, over time . . . .
No sooner than Nannies' little pamper princess was getting used to her strict diaper regime and constant fear of being discovered - that it was Amusingly Announced by Nanny, that 'sissy period cycle training' was to be added as well.
Thick kotex pads lining sanitary panties, and invading femminine tampons in pansies bottom; were going to be a VERY Regular Multi-Day task event NOW, every month ! It was NOW either baby nappies, or sissy kotex/tampons in knickers; for sissy slave katrini - for life . . . .
i had no choice or say in the Matter now
First steps.....
There's so much more to taking care of a baby girl. Proper little girl toys to play with. Appropriate reading and television. Discipline. Bed-times.....It's a shame I didn't get to explore more and take more control of Trini.
But thank you, Trini, for that enjoyable read. It's being posted after our time has ended, but I hope you manage to see it.....and that when you do it brings back some pleasant memories.
Mistress Brianna xx