What a lost soul beta is....She's lucky she has Mommy in her life to look after her. New Jersey must be such a scary place for such a loser. Ooops. Did I say where she lives out-loud? Silly, Mommy. Lol.
Seriously, I've loved having beta in my company for a good couple of years now. Maybe even more. She's very special to me, even though she fails. A lot. In almost every way.
Recently, I asked her to send me some of her favorite hopes and desires. She even headed the email the same. Forlorn Dreams.....Lolol....But maybe not, as you'll see after her fun list.
An overnight stay at a hotel where I am Mommy’s to use as she pleases the entire night. I can only pack what she says, can only bring what she says, eat what she says, do as she says, etc.
Locking the toilet seat so I don’t have access to it and have to pee myself instead.
Picking out my order whenever I eat out at a restaurant.
Picking out my outfit each day. Start with undergarments and progress over time.
Chastity to control my urges. To be discussed further.
Possible implementation of a parental control on my laptop to monitor my browsing activity. I very, very often get distracted stroking to cam models on Myfreecams and Chaturbate.
Possibly streaming myself (faceless) on cam to make some money. Or just stream myself locked up, tied up or in corner time.
Drink my piss. Control how much I have to drink each day.
Diaper wearing. Have me in a diaper and dont allow me out until you say so or I mess myself X amount of times.
Pacifier wearing to give me something to suck on.
Bottle drinking because cups are for alphas.
Grindr flirting. Control who I can flirt with on Grindr and the pics I can share with people.
Hair maintenance. Control my body hair and how I style it - haircut, facial hair, body hair (might need to consider the girlfriend), etc.
Dog bowl for drinking and eating from when I misbehave or just daily.
Shopping trips for buying clothes, etc.
Peloton class - pick if/when I take the class and my outfit that I wear
Corner time to enforce how much of a puppet I am and a beta. I like having to listen to music, a movie, a kids TV show, etc. you pick while in the corner. I like you picking the position I need to assume and the duration. I love creativity with this.
Rice. Count pieces of rice or kneel on rice.
Using a blender to blend up my food and pour it out in my dog bowl to lick up and eat as lunch or dinner.
Betting on a sports game and having a punishment if I lose.
Using a plug while I work to train my hole.
Dildo training to get better at deepthroating.
Cleaning in a maid’s outfit.
Picking out my outfit for when I go to bed.
Force me to watch a certain genre of porn for X amount of time each day/week.
Have me create a profile on a dating site, Reddit, etc. to communicate with other sissies and tell them about our training.
Playing with Mikey - maybe
Using a plug on myself while showering.
Eating a meal while sitting on the toilet or just pour it a ll over me in the shower and have me eat it in there after it’s been blended.
Dress in a bikini or swimsuit.
I mentioned these dreams might not be forlorn for much longer.
Our dynamic is changing. On and off, over a long time, beta has flirted with the idea of being blackmailed. It scares her to death, but she also finds the notion thrilling and knows for a girl like her it will be for the best.
So over the months....and months....and, yes, more months...she's slowly, cagily, revealed things about herself and those in her world. I've always known how she fails her girlfriend in the bedroom....lolol....for example, but recently she revealed more about the female friends in her circle. The one who's feet she adores. The one she longs to sleep with. Lolol....So pathetic.
I've coaxed and teased information from her, but never quite had enough to make her dreams (and nightmares) of blackmail come true.
But finally, beta has succeeded and done something right!
Who'd da thunk it? Lol.
I now have beta's ID and she knows that it's no longer about the fear of her face being revealed. She knows that, even though we've been together through loads, no matter how much I care for her.....If she ever disappoints me, I'll not hesitate in outing her and encouraging others to look her up.
beta has always been Mommy's little girl......Only it used to be by choice. Lolol.
Time to take a good look at that list, beta. Where should we start?
Mistress Brianna xx